We're just 4 days from finding out the news..if there is any. This is really becoming emotionally draining. It's almost as if I don't want to find out because if I don't find out then it can't be bad news...right? If it's not the news we want to hear, it's going to be a very tough Christmas this year. Christmas has been really tough for us for the past 2 years anyway. Being at the holidays with all those children and knowing we're still childless and no hope of a little one at all causes a lot of emotional pain. It's hard to enjoy it and we've just wanted the holidays to go by quickly sometimes and the questions to be avoided, but we face it each year. I think if we get let down this time it will make it 10 times worse. After the money we've spent and the physical and emotional stress we've had with this, I'm just scared that we wouldn't be able to go through it again. I'm hoping this is just all those medicated hormones talking, but it's really hard, yet our only hope of a family. We've got to face it either way, but we're hoping and praying it's good news that we can share with others and celebrate with.