Our next appointment...
Just moments ago, we set up our appointment to debrief on IVF#1 and figure out the new protocol for IVF#2. Our appointment is Tuesday, December 26th. Hopefully, it'll be a new year with new possibilities.
We're still grieving. This is all still difficult to swallow. The nurse told me to call if I need any medications to help me through. Right now, I'm just thankful to have another milestone to look towards....our next appointment. With IVF, it's all very overwhelming, but you must just take a little piece at a time. So, this is the first step.
We are finding the positive in all of this as much as we can. It hurts greatly, but we have to find a way to cope and move on. Two weeks ago, we had 3 beautiful embryos that were growing. They didn't make it. They either stopped growing or just did not implant. No one knows why and it truly can't be explained. Right now, we are just trying to compile questions for Dr. Gentry. I think everyone in his office is a bit confused as to why this failed. There was such possibility. The nurses have all apologized and continue to say they'll keep praying for us. They are the sweetest people ever. I spoke with Bea today, and she is extremely knowledgable. I love something different about each of them. Kim is super sweet and knows exactly how your feeling (she has struggled too). Mark is a sweety and she always calls me "baby girl." They all make me smile, even the secretary, Christy. I trust Dr. Gentry and his staff with all my heart. We can't explain why this failed, but I have faith Dr. Gentry will get us there. Bea was super honest and said she didn't think there would be any other way for us to get pregnant besides IVF. Although not exactly what we want to hear, it's comforting to know what we have to do.
We'll get through this, but it's difficult. We're not really stressed, but just frustrated. I think we're just struggling to understand why? Why us? Only God knows that answer and only He will know when it's time for us to have a famly. Until then, we must struggle with the physical and emotional pain to erase all the possibilities of "What if?" in our minds.
My my my.. what a story we'll live to tell someday.
We're still grieving. This is all still difficult to swallow. The nurse told me to call if I need any medications to help me through. Right now, I'm just thankful to have another milestone to look towards....our next appointment. With IVF, it's all very overwhelming, but you must just take a little piece at a time. So, this is the first step.
We are finding the positive in all of this as much as we can. It hurts greatly, but we have to find a way to cope and move on. Two weeks ago, we had 3 beautiful embryos that were growing. They didn't make it. They either stopped growing or just did not implant. No one knows why and it truly can't be explained. Right now, we are just trying to compile questions for Dr. Gentry. I think everyone in his office is a bit confused as to why this failed. There was such possibility. The nurses have all apologized and continue to say they'll keep praying for us. They are the sweetest people ever. I spoke with Bea today, and she is extremely knowledgable. I love something different about each of them. Kim is super sweet and knows exactly how your feeling (she has struggled too). Mark is a sweety and she always calls me "baby girl." They all make me smile, even the secretary, Christy. I trust Dr. Gentry and his staff with all my heart. We can't explain why this failed, but I have faith Dr. Gentry will get us there. Bea was super honest and said she didn't think there would be any other way for us to get pregnant besides IVF. Although not exactly what we want to hear, it's comforting to know what we have to do.
We'll get through this, but it's difficult. We're not really stressed, but just frustrated. I think we're just struggling to understand why? Why us? Only God knows that answer and only He will know when it's time for us to have a famly. Until then, we must struggle with the physical and emotional pain to erase all the possibilities of "What if?" in our minds.
My my my.. what a story we'll live to tell someday.
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