Sorry to make everyone worry!  I sometimes forget about how involved everyone is about this pregnancy.  I am SO very appreciative of the support.  I had a late night out last night, so I came home, ate and went to bed.  

So, yesterday we had a prenatal visit and u/s and cervical check.  They started with the cervical check via transvaginal ultrasound.  They had a heck of a time deciphering my cervix this time.  I have a cervix shaped like a "c" and it's just odd looking.  They are pretty sure they saw the mucous plug and measured at 3.5cm (still! YEAH!).  The doctor had to come in and do the transvaginal herself because she kept looking at the screen with some confusion too and she finally looked at me and said, "Forget this, we'll find far better information by me checking you personally."  (They spent probably 20-30 minutes trying to figure out my cervix.  It's weird looking, so it's difficult.  My cervix is closed still (YEAH AGAIN!).  She had planned to check me anyway, so it was no big deal.

They did the abdominal u/s and checked the girls too.  Miss Addy was busy and wouldn't sit still very long, but they finally got her heartbeat at 141.  Reagan is out of fluid (or as the u/s shows).  It does not look like her bladder has gotten any worse, but it certainly isn't any better.  If you could just see her all scrunched in there and unable to move very much, it's just heartbreaking.  Her heart was beating normally at 136.  My mom asked the doctor if she could go on living without fluid, and Dr. T shook her head yes and looked up to us and said sometimes these babies surprise us.  So, her heart is beating and that is certainly that is wonderful.  Her kidneys are certainly likely to fail, and her lungs not to mature, but as we truck along, different things happen.

Dr. T also approved my c-section.  I tried calling and getting a letter from my colon surgeon who discussed with me that a c/s would be a good idea to keep from tearing my rectum up anymore than it already has been from Crohn's.  Trust me, I don't want major surgery, but I would far prefer a c/s than the possibility of losing my rectum (and that is likely not a far off thought if my disease becomes untamed again).  I have only had a few minor Crohn's issues, but they are so minimal compared to what I'm used to.  Besides that, I think I just get a little carefree about food selections anymore because I CAN eat so much more, that occasionally it backfires a bit.  But, no major cramps and I've only had 2 flares that lasted a day each and that was when my cervix shrunk to around 3.5cm and it has stayed steady since.  I have Remicade again at 31 weeks and then I'll most likely deliver around 35-37 weeks, so I'll be midway through treatment and hoping that I don't "crash and burn" after major surgery and losing all of that hormone.  But, I should be okay.

As far as basics, my blood pressure was good (high for me, but not high for me while pregnant) 120/78.  I gained another 6 lbs bringing my total to 32!  Dr. T doesn't seem worried at all about it. In fact, she was happy to see me gaining some weight as I lost quite a bit in the beginning.  I was overweight to begin with, but I've gained very little in comparison with most twin pregnancy recommendations, and most think I look "all baby."  So, right on for that.  Yet, they found protein in my urine yesterday.  I wasn't shocked, I just hope it's not a bladder infection.  I don't think I've gotten near the water I need in the past few days, so hopefully that's all the issue is.  Oh, and my fundal height this time was only 37weeks.  Sometimes it varies because the girls lay in different directions and such.  So, according to the "ruler" my belly shrunk 2 weeks since last visit.  But, even Dr. T said it "looked much bigger." 

As for how we're doing, we're okay.  Things are a bit more surreal.  We'll deliver in no more than 9 weeks from tomorrow and that is just unbelievable.  We'll be parents soon.  That is just going to be a tough day.  Not only from a c-section, but from having to watch our little girl struggle one way or the other and trying to rejoice in another healthy little girl.  We are hoping for the best and trying to prepare for the worst.  There are things we have discussed, just the basics, so that day will hopefully be a little easier.  Our feelings are so mixed about what to do right now and at birth day.  The conversations just don't even belong in the same sentence, but they have to be.  We aren't giving up on Reagan, yet we know we must understand what the worst case scenarios are, and that is so tough.  I finally find myself angry when I'm forced to think about the "basics" of what to do.  All of those decisions are pretty personal, so I don't share too much of that.  As we have to make them, we'll share them and I may personally discuss some stuff with people, but it's people I trust and know they will understand where we're coming from on what we want to do.  Just so you have an idea of what we have to deal with.. there are things such as Infant Bereavement Photography, cremation or burial, funeral home or church, ventilation or no ventilation, etc.  And, with all that in mind, we must also take into sincere consideration the effects on our other daughter as she grows up.  We are no longer just Charley & Kaycie, we are a family... and we have two daughters.  We must think what is best for them as well as us.  I haven't posted much on any of this until now, but I just want everyone to know that we have been forced to think about it and it is very hard.  That is where my anger of the situation comes in.  Otherwise, I feel completely blessed to have 2 beautiful daughters....  As I always say, I don't expect anyone to understand how this feels.  I just expect their respect for the situation at hand...

On a happy note, our baby shower is in 11 days!!! I cannot believe it.  Invitations went out a few days ago.  We left our registry as registered for twins..because again.. we "hope" for the best.  Reagan and Addy are still fighting and I cannot give up on a little girl that wants to live so bad.  I am indefinitely scared, but who wouldn't be?

We've had a few more questions about where we are registered, so I'm reposting the links for everyone:
Our Target Baby Registry
Our Babies R Us Baby Registry

Thank you all so much for your unending support and prayers.  We wouldn't have made it this far without all of it and you....