Through Reagan, we have met some phenomenal people.  I could go on and on about amazing stories that have been shared with us.  People's lives that Reagan and Addy touched.  The amount of prayers that our daughters have received.  The amount of hope, faith, and love is purely endless....

One particular person just experienced a recent loss.  She has been extremely kind to allow me into her life and share her family and her experiences.  For that, I am forever grateful.  I frequent a few message boards and blogs these days, so that is how I know this individual.  Just last month, she lost her twin boys after they put up a heck of a fight to live.  My heart breaks for her daily, as does my heart for other parents who have been dealt the road of giving birth to angels.

She shared something on her blog just recently that just inspired me to write this post.  I was full of hope and faith while I was pregnant.  I felt His presence all the time, but as the road of grief continues, I find myself waning.  (Hence, the Lexapro they put me on).  Anniversaries are on the horizon and life is just tough.  I'm excited about Addy's first birthday, yet dreading it in the same token.  I know deep down it will all be "okay," but the build up to the day is just excruciating.  Don't get me wrong, emotionally, I am good, but the road of grief just catches you at times, and it doesn't help that Addy has had a 101.0+ fever for the last 30 hours and that I caught some sort of flu bug myself.  It's just when I run across these things, you cannot help but be reminded of it all.....

This video is about a blog that my friend found.  The couple just lost their daughter a few weeks ago and much like we received a fatal diagnosis early on, so did they.  The difference?  We had a healthy baby and a sick baby, so termination was NOT an option.  Period.  Had Reagan been our only child in utero, who knows what we would of decided.  This family has shown amazing strength and their daughter, Audrey Caroline, whom they chose to carry on with her life until 34 weeks (14 weeks after her fatal diagnosis) has touched the world.  The gist of her condition was no amniotic fluid (same as Reagan), polycystic kidneys (Reagan had abnormal kidneys too), and an enlarged heart (Reagan's heart was squished by her bladder).  This little girl lived 90 minutes.  Reagan lived 87min. 

Her mommy & daddy and a few friends co-wrote this song (her daddy is a member of a Christian group - Selah).  It's an amazing tribute to a beautiful life that taught so many so much, much like Reagan did....

Watch Audrey Caroline's video.