Mercy Me - A fantastic Christian band! 

I think this post might involve a bit of a history lesson about me.  Back when I was 15 or so, I started going to a Baptist church with a good friend.  I fell in love with the church and their awesome youth group and all their awesome music.  I'm a huge music person.  Played Clarinet, Bass Clarinet, and Contra-Bass Clarinet from 6th-12th grade and played the piano from about 4th grade.  Music has always been a BIG part of my life.  Sometimes, it's how I get my feelings out.  I typically always have my IPod readily available and I like to listen to tunes whenever I can.  If I can't drown myself in Nick at Nite with all the oldie reruns, then music it is!  I had a falling out with the whole "church" thing around 17ish.  My friend and I had some issues that I still don't even know what they were about! (High school! - rest assured, we're the best of friends now!).  

But, it was back during that "church" time with my friend when I was first introduced to Mercy Me.  Wow... did I ever know what an impact their music would make on me?  Never would I understand.

About 6 months ago, I went to a business meeting.  I was sitting there and they asked us to listen to this song.  The name?  Imagine, by Mercy Me.

I can only imagine what it will be like
When I walk by Your side
I can only imagine what my eyes will see
When Your face is before me
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory
What will my heart feel
Will I dance for your Jesus
Or in awe of You be still
Will I stand in Your presence
Or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah
Will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

I can only imagine when that day comes
And I find myself standing in the Son
I can only imagine when all I will do
Is forever, forever worship You
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

Chorus (repeat)

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship You


I heard those words and promptly ran out of the room crying inconsolably.  A friend ran out after me and just held me while I shook.  This is SO not like me!  Yes, I'm emotional, but do I cry in public at the drop of a hat?  No way!  Those words hit me like a rock.  I suddenly thought, "I can only imagine when I see Reagan.  When I meet my Lord and thank him for holding onto my baby girl, yet question Him why I was forced to deal with this pain.  I can only imagine the day I will leave this Earth and look forward to being with my sweet Reagan, yet being forced to leave my Princess Addy alone.  I can only imagine that day when I get to hold my Reagan again.  I can only imagine..."

Well, for my birthday, Charley gave me an XM Satellite Radio!  I have been drooling over his Sirius Radio I got him for Christmas.  I was excited to have this as now I have an array of awesome stations.  I like the Siruis better, but the XM is SLOWLY growing on me.  I found a Christian station called "Message" today.  And, on it?  You guessed it... Mercy Me.  Satellite radio is amazing because OFTEN times they have the artists on their LIVE!  And, guess what they were singing?  You guessed it...."I can only Imagine"  And, once again, tears welled in my eyes.  I was alone in my car, but still.... there is something very powerful about that song.  Something so bittersweet.  The reality that one day I will leave this Earth and my sweet Princess, yet will be reunited with my Heavenly Angel Reagan.  Where do you process a thought like that?  You don't.  For now, I will simply enjoy my little Miss Addy.  She is my everything.  She has such a cute giggle and SUCH personality.  We often joke about how she has to have double the personality to show us what we are missing without Reagan.  She is our beautiful blessing, as is Reagan.

And, it's surely not ironic, but the song that Mercy Me sang live JUST before their live "Imagine" song?  "Homesick"  No joke.  Does anyone remember me posting that song back in the day?  A few weeks after the girls were born, a dear distant family member whom I deeply respect, sent me that song alongside a special plaque and a beautiful letter.  That song stayed in my car for months until I misplaced it somewhere.  I have it on my computers, but just not in my car anymore.  So, when I hear that song, I was taken back.  Just for reference, here's the post to that song....   Homesick Post


I'll post more updates soon... we've been amidst a few minor projects in our home along with being out of town and getting over that nasty double ear infection Miss Addy had.  Plus, I've involved in a pretty huge project!  Just for reference sake... Miss Addy now weighs 17lb 8oz... yes, she gained 1.5lbs in a MONTH!  Big girl!  She turns one in 6 weeks!!!!